LOVE – Poems

Words: Unseen_Unheard
Photos : Louise Nilsson

FROM EMPTY

I break myself to

make myself nectar

for your sweet taste

for black lace and

late night mistakes.

I flutter sad eyes 

as you stutter butterflies

into my mouth,

and I swallow them

like meals I have purged

and feelings I have urged 

into silence,

even when my skin was craving 

your gentlest 

violence,

even when I have been

nothing

but a dry thirst 

to be loved back 

in the measures 

I kept pouring for you

from empty, 

from the hollow

I wallowed, where words 

churned and turned

into promises I couldn’t speak 

nor keep, like how 

I will be able to get up

after us.

But there is no such thing as,

after us;

we just slumber 

between each tumble 

and fumble,

I only crumble to 

put on another black dress and 

perfume myself

with your ever after sorries. 

But it is a love story, 

nonetheless.

I take what I can 

get with you

WHO AM I?

Who am I 

to build an alter at his ribs;

to kneel there,

to sip that soul

straight from his skin, to take 

his essence 

to the back of my throat 

where I hum unholy hymns 

of longing to belong 

there, a gargling madness 

of wasted love 

Who am I 

to carve our names 

into eternity, to cut my earthquake

into trembles 

and lay them 

at his feet like a burnt offering, who am I

to burden him

with my blaze, with my wounded gaze

of hopeless adoration;

a raging wildflower 

claiming his untrained hands to tame me

Who am I 

to go here, to go this far,

to bend at such uncomfortable angles,

to break at my own will, to tangle 

myself

around his shadows to outstay 

this invitation

so brief 

in his infatuation, who am I

to wreck whole worlds

to have the crumbs of him;

who am I? 

GHOST

I feel eerie in my own lingerie,

a blue satin ghost 

of the girl you used to court,

using up all the space 

in doorways and mornings,

watching you press

coffee beans

with a tenderness and fervour 

I remember 

only to envy their aroma;

this is a slow finale 

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